I though that i could have a gang of best friends in my uni life. But happiness always gone fast. I wish that we could rewind our time to four months before, the day that we all are still hand hold hand and laugh together take selfie together. I hope that we all are still the same as we met each other. But, times always joke with us, when we want to be together, they separate us in different group for internship. 4 of them go Traders, KL, and we are going to Penang, V stay at kuching for her internship.
The new life start again and again. I just realize that I feel very tired when we been together and doesn't know that how to communicate with you guys. Seem now our friendship is so complicated. At first, my English is broken, when I talk to S and L is like how the chicken talk to ducks. I feel that we are always not in the same channel and I felt sad that why my English is so poor, can't even talk smoothly infront of others people. When interview for internship, I felt that I'ill not been choosen by the current hotel that we are interviewing. Why? because, I doesn't speak smoothly, and doesn't look confident when i spoke. Maybe nowadays everyone want the one who know how to spoke English smoothly and sound nice.
But, from my sentences, you could see that my English is broken and sometime you will not understand what I'm talking about now. Ok, turn back to the story...
When T is leave the group, I was very shock and don't know why. No ones want to tell me, feel like I'm the one who force T leave the group. Yes, maybe I'm the one who force him, but.... why? Why so easily leave group? and put me and V as the group monitor. It's sound like I'm the devil to separate all of us. Maybe yes. but, I dunno why when semester 2 start, T talk's sound sarcastic sometime, and at first I doesn't care much. And it's like a brick that put one, two, three, four, five, six, seven.... and add some more sarcastic words that he could every time, not only me, J, V, S, K, C, L them too... you not only say sarcastic word to me, but them too... So I can't hold on, I'm almost burst out, because I saw that some of them are not feel very happy with your sarcastic words, and I want to help them, that's all only.But why are you so complicated? Maybe I should not so kepo of others things.
Maybe I just watch the movie and doesn't help anyone is better than I help? Is it that you guys want? If you guys want this, ok, no problem, start from now I will less communicate with you guys... because that my reaction will make you guys feel uncomfortable right? so..... could I be alone? Like SC? HAHA I think being alone will be better than being with you guys. Because I scare that later when I help someone else, some of you will be leaving group too. I know that you guys have a new group without me. Just without me. Am I right? Maybe I should leave the group so you guys will feel comfortable right? I feel very tired when I try my best to let us be together, but the result is every time i failed.
I never know that being alone are this feel. This feel is terrible. I just don't wan't after graduate, we are not friends anymore. but seem like, now I doesn't mean much for you guys. Hey, I'm just asking, are we still friends? T, I just want to tell you that can you don't talk too sarcastic? If you can, will sound better than before, and we could be best friends again. Maybe I will not talk much after I write down this long paragraph. Maybe I shouldn't talk is better for others. Maybe you want to be a leader to guide others people, Ok, I don't mind, but can be a little bit teamwork? because we NEED you T! we cant left one out of us. Maybe you will hate me now, but now, I'm Sorry for all of this, maybe I'm too kepo, so I won't talk any about homework after I finish this paragraph. So, Hope that we all are still friends. I dont want that after internship we are going to be in different group, That's all that I wish.
